January 2010
boyfriend
the past 2 1/2 years there was only one boyfriend on and off. life revolved around them. not anymore, theres a new boy in my life. he finally makes me happy and never sad. its always smiles with him. i remember i was curled up in bed crying my heart out in pain and sadness and just him talking to me somehow made me feel okay again. he made everything hurt less. he had no idea i was sitting...
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14482.) Honestly, I think you're an asshole now,...
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i feel so sad right now. im tlking to my boyfriend on skype but i feel like im about to cry in front of him. i dont want to go to sleep cuz im so worried. :/ i’d miss you so much , please dont do it. :(
for the first time in a long time i fell for him and he caught me. he didn’t fall with me and pull the parachute and leave me like every other one. <3
wow. haha. so the ex-bf when he finds out im in a relationship decides to post a status about me. like really child. grow up. you’re older then me so act like it. laughing your ass off how im in a relationship with someone that isnt an ass like you :). im happy get over yourself. k, thanks :) <3
so im unbelievably happy right now :) gah soo happy :)
i wish i could understand the text messages and be able to just know what he thinks of me. i dont know how he feels bout me… driving me crazy…
since camcam is mad i havent tumblred in a while
well lets see, i had an amazing weekend but sadly had to come to an end since he had to go back to school. i really wanna go up to vermont to see him but my parents are gay and i know theyd say no. :(. um um 1 month til he comes back. and yah.
idk thats bout it. February cant come any faster
14292.) I want to disappear and never be heard of...
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You say the sweetest things and I Can’t keep...
i constantly feel sick. if i dont eat i feel sick. when i do eat, i feel sick. :/
bahaha you’d think when two ex girlfriends of you’re boyfriend come foward and tell you how they hooked up with him you’d dumb him. but no. you’re still with him. talk about desperate piece of shit.
whatever. you know. he probably lied his way out of that one. but ya know. just wait hun. youll be the fucking laughing stalk of the school. yah maybe he cheated on me once...
this shouldve been over last night. i decided what i want then. ive changed my mind of what i want. you’ll be sorry. you’ll miss me. its over. no more. watching your life crash and burn like you did to me. karmas a bitch my love. enjoy the show ;)
chemistry exam today. going to fail it. head hurts back hurts. cant think straight.
14252.) I secretly wish that you will hurt her the...
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i shall cry til its tears of blood. til i have nothing left to give you. each tear that falls from this beautiful face is for you. you took everything else from me, just finish me. take my life while you’re at it. i will never feel pain again, ill never see pain again, ill never hear pain again. finish me off, you have no guilt so go ahead. youll save me.
i swear.
i was okay. i was some what okay. i felt loved. i felt wanted. i was finally able to walk around some what happy. now i have nothing. he’s all i ever wanted for some reason. and i hate it. why did i have to fall in love with him. i dont understand it. why could god want a person to go through this. why should someone want to feel dead because of a stupid boy. why does it have to hurt. i hate...
it hurts. i said it. i told him im walking away. i did it. his reaction hurts. im breaking. hes killing me. i gave him everything and he took it and ran.
god please stop the pain. please </3
14172.) I fantasize about breaking your heart the...
i want to do this to you so bad, make you feel the pain you’ve caused me and so many other people. i want you to wish you were dead because I hurt you so bad. but 1. i dont think i can, i love you to much. 2. dont think it would even affect you, like you even really care.
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14182.) i talked bad about her coz i can't take...
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OMFG MY BACK IS FUCKKING KILLING MEEEEE. CAN NOT MOVE WITHOUT PAIN WTF!
:(
k. thats all. studying for exam #2
14206.) I still don't know what to do.
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You told me that you felt differently, that you weren’t sure whether you still loved me, after 18 months. I feel sick to my stomach every time I think about it. I just want it to go back to how it was.
14203.) I can't stop crying. You're killing me....
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14197.) i know youre busy and all . . . but im not...
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2946.) I don't know what I could have done, but...
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im giving it two weeks maybe 2 and a half. if by then things remain the same im leaving for good. i promise i will say go fuck yourself, let the truth out and leave for good. i refuse to be the side dish for this long. you say you love me…baby, prove it cuz its not going to do you any good to say you love me so much with someone in your life. it doesnt work that way and its stupid of me to...
“No matter how hard you try to get over someone, you will still have some sort of...”
“I wondered what it must be like, to actually get to start again, forget the...”
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“Then why can’t I say it? My heart’s flying around in my chest - I...”
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